My inner highschool reunion

I wasn't going to give in. I wasn't going to "go with the crowd", but I bought it for something to do on the 10 hour flight back home from France, and... well.... I got completely and utterly sucked in to the "Twilight" series, and now I can't think of anything else!

Confessions of my inner highschool girl: I must admit, I never really and truly left high school. Oh, it wasn't like it was the pinacle of my existenance- far from it- but life was simpler then, in a complicated way. (what?) I was totally guy obsessed, it's true. I couldn't help it, isn't that what 17 year old girls are supposed to do? That's what my manual book said.

So, when I read "Twilight" just before leaving Paris, I wasn't prepared for how my inner 17 year old would react. She violently overthrew my more mature woman half, suppressing her into the deepest recesses of my psyche, and now I hear her occasionally screaming from somewhere deep inside that the laundry needs to be done, or something about cooking dinner. Honestly, all I hear is "Edward".

So, book 4 comes out on Saturday. I didn't even freak out this much when the last few Harry Potters came out. I knew Harry would live in the end. I just knew it- Good always trumps evil in the end. But, I am just not certain at all how this series will end, and it is freaking me out! (Remember, I no longer have a mature side to function with.)

I am rooting for Edward all the way. Ya, Ya... I know. Jacob would be better for her in the long run- she'd be able to have babies, and not eat her neighbors, be human- blah, blah, blah. But who wants normal? What's the point of reading a fictional novel if it's all going to end up like your own life? (I love my life, don't get me wrong. But everyone's gotta have a little fantasy in their life, right?)

Edward is unrealistically handsome, to be sure. He is intrigued by his inability to read Bella's mind, and some would say that, along with her alluring scent, is the only reason he loves her. I disagree. They have an inexplicable connection. I think they are truly "soul mates" if such a thing existed. (If he has a soul, even!) I think things would only get better between the two of them when she becomes a vampire. I think she will have very special powers that we can't even imagine.

Also, I think Bella needs her relationship with Edward. She has always had to be the responsible one with her mom. That is really hard on a kid. Her dad seems like just a guy who eats the food she cooks, and is worried someone will come and take her away from him so he'd have to go back to Hungry Man dinners again. (No, I know he loves her, but it isn't a father/daughter relationship.) Bella needs someone to take care of her, shelter her, protect her. I think Edward would always do that for her- Jacob just wants someone to play with.

So, let me know your thoughts. Let's put down our adult sides for a minute and revert back to high school. Think like a hormone- ridden teenager! Who do you think will get the girl in the end? Who do you WANT to get her? (I will forgive you the error of your thinking if you choose Jacob over Edward.)